I went yesterday to have a panagram done on my Jaw. This is where a x-ray machine goes from one side of the face to the other and take a xray of the Jaw from side to side. My Jaw for some reason swells so big on the left side that at times it feels like if I poked it with a needle it would just burst. It also hurts like the devil. I called my Cancer Doctor about this swelling and he ordered the panagram. This is performed by a Oral Surgeon. The receptionist told me that she has BREAST CANCER and she goes to the same group of Doctors that I go to. She asked me when I had the surgery done. After telling her she went on to tell me that I was doing GREAT!! They have 6 other patients that have had the surgery and they are not doing anywhere near as well as I am doing. I cannot tell you what this did to my self esteem. I felt for the 6 people but I could not help but scream on the inside. I fight with the feelings everyday--Why aren't I doing this or that yet!!!Why can't I do this or that! When am I going to be able to do this or that! WHY,WHY,WHY!!! Today I got all my answers and I didn't even have to ask. This woman made my day, my month, my year. She went on to tell me that give it about another 6-9 months and come back to them and have a consult with the oral surgeon. That he can help me with the opening and closing of my mouth. He would also need and want to discuss this with my Cancer Group of course. I left there I was on a cloud higher than cloud 9. LOL. Seriously, we fight this battle by the minute, hour, day. We may not can see our opponent but it is there bigger than life itself. Some of us lose the fight before we even get started. Some of us live battle, fighting everyday just to get out of bed. So it is such a wonderful feeling when someone comes along and lets you know that you are kicking your opponents butt. Maybe just for that moment. Sometimes a moment is all you have left. I came home to tell my husband all about my experience and before I said a word he said to me--Honey you look like a million bucks, you had a great day didn't you? That 'ole self esteem was shinning. I went to him put my arms around him and just for that moment---LIFE WAS GREAT!!!I just had to share a GOOD DAY for a change with you....We do have them--few and far between-but we DO have them-and when you do have one you want to tell the world.....Always Vicki Lynn

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It's so good to hear about your great day. I wish you many many more of them - you deserve to have them. Congrats fighter!

That's great news Vicki - you deserve all that good and encouraging news as you are such an inspiring person. Always ready to share your thoughts and emotions and help all who come on to this site. Keep 'em coming as we all benefit from hearing happy news. Your story about the Easter Bunny is beautiful - Ric sounds such a treasure in himself! Have a great Easter. Brenda.