It's been really nice here in Plymouth today. Sunshine always helps, not too much though, it'll give you cancer lol. Hagg.

Hi to all....
Sun is still shining in Cornwall! .....unfortunately, Brian is not feeling too good today. The lump on/in his nose is getting bigger and beginning to obscure some of his right eye and it's making him feel very uncomfortable.
Still, CT scan tomorrow and hopefully results of biopsy, if not tomorrow then by Thursday and at last some information on what can be done.
Happy thoughts to everyone out there.
Heather.x

Dearest Heather and Hagg,
When I hear about Sunshine - it normally takes me to a vision of John Denver singing "sunshine on my shoulder.....". However, I do not think he would have ever sung that song had he been sitting out in the sun for even fifteen minutes here in Delhi!

However, jokes are jokes but on a a more serious note I can see how bad Brian must be feeling as of now and I am sure he is really happy that he has you to comfort him. I really do wish all the scans go off well and so does the results of the biopsy and then things can be on their way to mending him of all his problems.

Heather, do let us know the results as soon as you have them as all our very best of wishes are with both Brian and you.

With lots of love,
Ananth

Heather,

I hope that Brian gets a plan of treatment asap.

My thoughts are with you

Martyn

Hello everybody.........
Well Brian & I have arrived back from the hospital and unfortunatley things aren't good. They've confirmed he's got the cancer back and that the tumour is about the size of a walnut but it is also wrapping itself around the bottom of the eye orbit.
Two possible options re treatment:
1. Surgery - but they're not keen as the cancer is very aggressive and if they miss any cells we'll be back where we started but in a different part of his face.
2. Chemotherapy - try and reduce the tumour and then try and maintain it at a reduced size.

However, they have indicated that this is probably not a long term solution (but can't give any time spans).

Brian is shattered having gone through his op back in October and all the radiotherapy and chemotherapy afterwards........but he starts chemo again this Tuesday and we have to hope that the tumour will reduce and at least give us some time to do things again.......just some normal living.........going out with friends and family. Enjoying time with our son, walks with our dog, working in our garden......

Our McMillan nurse is going to put some McMillan support in place which hopefully will help in some of the tricky times ahead........but we're very lucky to have a great family and some really supportive freinds. And I feel sure that I'm going to be calling on all of you out there for words of advice - and particularly some of the great humour I've seen in other threads!!!!

Love & hugs
Heather.xx

I'm really sorry to hear that Heather. Always here if you or Brian need support. Take care, Hagg.

That must be the one thing we all live in dread of having to hear again. They are coming up with new treatments every day. Please know, Heather, that you and Brian are in my thoughts and prayers each day. Diana J

Dear Hagg and Diana J
Thank you for your posts....
I haven't been in for a couple of days......just taking some time to absorb everything.
Still feeling very emotional and confused.......but trying to rally round to keep Brian's spirits up.
Will keep posting updates and hope for inspiration from all sources.
hugs to everyone
Heather.x

Hello everyone
Brian has had his first chemo today. Things went well, didn't take too long - about 2 hours.
In fact, Brian seemed much perkier today - maybe it's the steroids or maybe he just feels better knowing that something is happening now, and we're not in that limbo place of waiting around.
Anyway, when we got back from the hospital he had a potter around the garden and did a bit of weeding.......then took the dog for a little walk up the lane. He hasn't done that for a couple of weeks, so I really feel that he is in a more positive frame of mind.
The MacMillan nurse is visiting on Thursday, so hopefully she will be able to give us some aid with all sorts of things.
All in all I think we both feel much more positive and stronger.
Hope everyone out there is feeling strong.......
love,
Heather.x

Dear Heather,

Though I can joke around well - I normally land up with a loss of words when things do not look too good and hence I did not post anything in regard to Brian. I am doing so today because he has become very positive in his approach and as long as his mental makeup is strong a lot of opportunities open up.
I am really happy that Braian is up and about and with you with him I know you will ensure he not only takes the dog out for a walk - but also the garbage out every night!!!!.

Lots of love to both Brian and you,
Ananth

Dear Ananth
Thank you for posting........I agree with you that now Brian has this more positive frame of mind he has started living again.......in fact he is only thinking about what he will be doing on a day by day basis. No thinking about tomorrow.
So today again Brian has done what he wanted. He even started decorating the kitchen!!!! Honest I didn't ask him to - it was just something he felt he wanted to do.
I have to go back to work next week so I'm hoping Brian will be able to keep himself amused whilst I'm away from home.........I will try and get him onto the forum (he's not very good with computers) as I feel this will give him somewhere to spend a bit of time each day.......
Anyway time for me to feed various animals and ourselves....
Hope you have a wonderful evening (although I'm not sure what the time difference is between UK and India......)but I have a feeling it might already be night time there!!!
Lots of love from Heather & Brian.xxx

Dear Brian,
Am targetting you very specifically as Heather is a catalyst in raising your spirits but you are one who has helped himself to make things better. Congratulations on the new Brian - taking the dog out for a walk not the garbage though!!. You idea of decorating the kitchen will cetrainly make Heather happy in cooking the things you like ( even if you make a mess of it as all men do - but its the thought that counts!! ).

One more thing Brian, do try and get onto the forum as it will be great to hear not just your views on all that you have been through but also commenting on what others have to say. You do not have to be serious all the time as they say "laughter is the best medicine".

Heather says you are not much of a hotshot with the computer - but thats no excuse as with time you will just get better and who knows - where all the computer knowledge may lead you too. You may just land up putting Bill(Gates) in the shade and making and raking in those billions of "moolah". However, jokes aside it will be great to hear from you and hope you do take up writing on the forum.

By the way Heather, the time difference between the UK and India is four and a half hours with you being behind our local time. And finally - yes it is night here and is past midnight - its two am to be precise and I will be crashing off in another hour or two after trying to rush to complete the little of what remains of my book as it meant for release in June!

With lots of love to both of you and may you (Braian) take the dog out on longer walks and decorate the kitchen in a manner where Heather will not snigger behind you back (women have this tendency you know ).

Take care,
Ananth