Hi Guys, sorry so long in posting but been a long hard xmas.
You know what I am glad that ALL of you took the time to reply to my postings as its so easy to feel your the only one going through this (deep down I know im not) as everyone else around seem normal.
The problem for me is that I AM NOT the person I was look alot older than my age (which infurates me) constantly tired and weak and in pain from my right arm shoulder and my teeth.
I have tried quiet a few things to get out including Yoga and meditation classes but I seem to fail as I have NO INTERSET in anything anymore!
I have got to the point that I only go out now when vital for shopping or Hospital.
I hate living like this but it seems to me the constant staring and comment when I am out wears me down, Its so easy for someone to say "ignore them" but its easier said than done.
The days seem to get longer and longer and sometimes I even forget what day it is.


well happy new years to you all


Paul