My life post cancer has been one crazy, wierd ride - with all kinds of things happening. Overdose of radiation, peritonites, trcheostomy, loss of voice and the ability to eat , drink or breathe from my moutha and nose respectively. Then came the next stage where the doctors decided the cancer had returned and nothing seems to reflest that it did - which again is wierd as this is not supposed to happen and I have the doctors really wondering what is happening.

Amid all this - I had been putting off a change in my peg tube as I felt it was not required after the doctors decided the cancer was back. However, since nothing seemed to indicate that I was soon going to be Ex- Ananth -I went ahead with the new peg tube. A tubleless decvice which is completely flat against my stomach and one can hardly even see it and it works like a dream. I went to meet my doctors and they want me to become their - guenie pig for a new aplication that has come into the world - a ready made trachea. As from what I have read about it and have discussed it with the doctors - they will remove the closed tubes and insert this one. They are confident about it working perfectly well and as long as they are confident so am I. If all goes well - I am off my peg for good, get back to eating, drinking and talking as I used to pre cancer .I was a bit hesitant about the entire thing - keeping my age now in view and the time I would require in the hospital. When I put forward my points - she asked me if I was 80 years old and on my saying no - she asked then as to where was the problem? Besides this physically I am still very fit and have got back to working out in a major way.
They are planning the surgery for the end of this month as who knows it may just turn out to be a birthday gift! On the other side it could also mean a a blunder that I have made. I honestly do not think anything could knock the day lights out of me as what the cancer did for three/ four years year after year. Wnenever I think about the possibilities of this becoming a succes - I reflect back on those days when I was being hammered black and blue and any kind of dubts just vanish.

Keeping my fingers and toes crossed and lets see what the future hold for me. As I mentioned in some other posts - I have no idea what is going to happen and so why worry. let that moment first come and then we will tackle it.I am not keeping my hopes all ready and set to get back to eating, drinking, whistling or playing the tuba - but will do that only once I have been through the surgery and walk out of the hopsital. I also understand that the new r now(hybrid??)trachea will not be rejected by the body.
So thats all for npw.
Thank you for reading - all those who do would want to ask me any questions or the procedure- I will be more then happy to provide you with the answers to the best of my ability.Actually -I am raring to hit the gym even harder and get back to a 100% fitness level (six pack and all that jazz!!)'
Love to all,
Ananth

Hi Ananth..........like you said what is the problem? It sounds great to me and after all you have been through I can only imagine what lies ahead for you. It seems like a dream come true. If only they had the kind of peg when I had mine I would have been a much happier camper. Even though we may not know others on this site with their ups and downs with this B.... of a disease I myself feel as though they are friends and family. I check in every day. My heart aches for Debs and Trev, Paul and Bell and so many others, so whatever you choose to do I'm with ya all the way You'll appreciate this......since I lost the 29 lbs my arms and legs are skinny and have wrinkles so I'm doing 3 lb (stop laughing) barbells . I'm doing them 3 three times a day 15 times each time. Two weeks ago I had a hard lifting them up and now I'm getting like a pro huh, sure you're probably still laughin. Hey ya gotta start somewhere. Good luck Anant Joan P.

Hey Ananth - that really does sound like a dream come true, doesn't it.

I sincerely hope it works and you can get back to eating and drinking - that would be fantastic.

Good luck.

Dear Joan and Winnie,
As long as it goes okay - it will be the biggest day of my life. I have no doubt about that at all. However, I am still keeping my hopes a bit subdued as I do not want to feel miserable if it does not work out.
Cross your fingers and toes for me and lets get on with life, or whats left of it.
Lots of love,
Ananth
PS : Have posted details in the album above.

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wow Ananth. wont that be amazing?! I'm so pleased for you!
Isn't it remarkable the way you never know whats round the corner.
Ihope it works out for you!

Hi Ananth,

Its great to read some good news on this site at last. I do hope it all goes well for you, but understand you not wanting to get too ecstatic just yet. Do let us know how you get on.

Best,
Cathy

A New Chapter indeed Ananth ,what a journey the last nine years has been for you Ananth and your quote is so perfect .I am sure this will be successful for you and have everything crossed for you

Could be such breakthrough for so many people .

Best wishes Bell & Paul .

Hi Chelle,
Been ages - but great to hear from you. Hope (rather, I know you) are doing well. Thanks a lot for for your message as if it does go well . as Bell said - it could be something that would benefit a lot of people. Keep your fingers crossed!!

Dear Cathy,
Spot on. I am with you on this point about feeling too great about it. Its a trial run and it could just turn out to be a disaster. Well, they are going to use my bonemarrow to ensure the growth and non rejection. Hopefully I will not have to be anti rejection medication for long. As I said my body is wierd and one never knows what going to happen next and what turn it will take. If it works - great and if not - ok - hopefully I will be back to the peg feed with not too much of damage.

Dear Bell,
I have no words for you - amid all that is going on through your life at this moment - you are actually reading all the other posts and feeling happy for the person (like me!) for the stroke of luck. I really and honestly wish I could do something for you and if there was or is - I would not back out in anyway. I know one thing though - I am really lucky to have someone like you by my side rooting for me.

Lots and lots of love to you all. Will keep you all updated.
Ananth

Ananth,

I am so pleased to hear your news - you always were a pioneer, weren't you! I can imagine how wonderful it will be for you if you are able to eat, drink and talk normally again, because I know how down it has made you feel sometimes that you couldn't do this. But then, if it doesn't work out you will have lost little, (except perhaps some time you could have spent working out!).

I will await more news of your operation with bated breath.

Lots of love

Gwyn

Don't worry Ananth, we are rooting for you and I have a good feeling this will be everything you are hoping for and more .When are you scheduled to have this proceedure ,is it soon ?

Best wishes to Sonia and the boys .

Bell & Paul.

Dearest Gwyn,
thank you from the bottom of my heart for your post as it does make a world of difference when you know there are so many who care for you rooting for you. It just makes one stronger and willing to take any amount of pain to achieve what could be something of history in the making. You are completely right on the working of the procedure - if its a success - great and if not - would not have missed out except for going through a bit of pain when they take out the bone marrow. I have heard it is painful - but guess - no gain without pain.

Dearest Bell,
How is Paul feeling? I honestly dread to ask this question as I had said earlier - I have no words to express the lovely relationship you both share. He makes you complete and you in turn do the same for him. I am sure neither of you can be complete without each other.
The tests have already started with all the scans etc and keeping me on a strict regimen. I am allowed to work out as hard as I want to as they know it will benefit me later and will play a major part in the healing process. I imagine the procedure to come into play sometime in July. Everyone here, at home, is excitied and its tough to tell them to play it down as I dont want any long faces in the event it does not. I have full faith in my doctors and when I say full - its a 1000%. I have never let any other doctor even touch me during all these years and am glad that though they all work for various hospitals - they are getting to gether as one for this particular operation. As much as I am getting into shape for a long operation - I guess they too are preparing for the same as it is going to be one long surgery..
Sonya and the boys are fine and they too are looking forward to the operation and which they hope will get me back to being normal. Its going to be an incredible story - but what the heck - I have been going through all kind of the wierdest thnigs that my body has been playing up and nothing surprises me any more. So one never knows!!
Bell, do give Paul all our warmest regards and we have what is affectionately called "Jadu ki Jappi" - which is translated means - a magical hug that cure everything. For all that I may be - I know one thing I am not as strong hearted as I make out to be and I feel so much for both of you that its come to a stage when the first thing I do is to read your posts and threads..
Take care Bell and lots and lots of love, kisses and hugs to both Gwyen and you. Paul gets a special hug and hope it gives him some peace as the hug comes from the very bottom of my alma.
Ananth