Dear all who do read this message,

Yesterday , saturday 11th.April a certain burden that I had been carrying for 32 years was taken off and this . It has made me now want to live longer and spend more time with my wife, Sonya - who really wennt through not just the cancer but also a lot of other things which no other woman would have. I hasve decided and I will do it to spend more time with her - Iam going to fight the damn cancer, I am going to get back to normal. Its such a great feeling as I know now I can do it now with so much hapiness withen myself. I have given myself 6 months to get back to normal eating, breating and talking and I am not talking through my hat and neither have I cracked up but am so very happy like I have never been besore. I love Sonya and will spend all my time with her.
Did not know if I should post such a cracked post but what the heck - I always do what I say.
Ananth

Hey there Ananth ,was just thinking about you the other day and was going to e mail you .Your absence has been noticed my friend .

I don't know what revelation you have had ,but pleased you have relieved yourself of this awful burden ,32 years is indded a long time to have been harbouring it .

Delighted you have found some peace and new vigour for life and especially a new fight for fitness in this interminadable disease.

Keep it going Ananth you always do what you say ,proud of you .

Bell and Paul.

Hi Ananth,

I am intrigued by your post, and delighted by your happy tone. Although I have not spoken to you directly, I have really enjoyed reading your posts and, as a carer, I have found your tremendous honesty about your feeling thoughout your battle with this bastard disease - the highs and the lows -very helpful.

Good luck with your six month goals - I am sure your love for your wonderful wife Sonya will help you achieve them. Please do post and tell us how you are getting on.

Cathy

Hi Ananth, glad you're sounding so happy and positive. I'm sure you'll achieve your 6 months goals now you've put your mind to it. Hagg.

Hi Ananth

So good to hear from you again - have missed you very much on the forums. have often thought about you and wondered how you were getting on (as has Pete).

Its great to hear you are feeling so positive. As you know, we will be with you all the way in your fight.

Love

Gwyn

hi ananth
how nice to see your post,you have been missed my boy but i know you were in a place where you wanted to be alone with yourself and i understand that totally.yes our partners do go through it when we are fighting cancer and it made me realise just how much my keith loves me especially when i think of what he had to do for me which i won't go into.that's it mate you fight you have so much going for you.such a lovely family you have with sonya and the boys and not forgetting buddo anyway great to see you back.take care love shirl xxx

Dear Bell, Cathy, Hagg, Gwyn and Shirl,

Thanks a million for your wishes. At times we do things in our lives which we feel were right at that point. Then things dont turn out to what you were expecting them to and ones mind keep going back to that occassion. It was something I carried around for all these years and all it did to me was make me into a nut who did not care if he lived or died or what anyone though of me.
Its strange how something that heavy one carries for 32 years is removed in just two days and you are set free. One gets on such a high that one has to feel it to experience it. I never really had a motive to fight the cancer but I got that and I have decided I am going to fight (or die fighting !!) but am going to be around a long time to spend with all my friends and family and most of all Sonya.
I need to have a beer and a cigarette now (Oh naw!!! I think I'll skip that bit!!!). The beer yeas - cheers all!!
love you all,
Ananth

HI! Ananth,
It was a joy to pick up on your thread and find a changed man one that has a different attitude on life and with that a greater feeling for your family, I had similar thoughts in regards to my life, but when I got down to thinking about my family, children, friends and above all my everloving and georgous Deb my desires changed and all I can think about now is them and what the world owes me.
So stay there with us and enjoy life to the full

Anath, sure is a welcome surprise to learn that you changed your mind about throwing in the towel.

this means we might have an opportunity to meet one of these days. yay!

Annath, WELCOME BACK!!!!! I have really missed your posts! I'm so happy that you're going to get on with life, leave the past behind (where it belongs) and start a new future for yourself and Sonya! Cheers to you Annath!!! And Cheers to Sonya also! Our Care Givers are our lifelines!!

Keep in touch with us, Cricket

Dearest Trev,
Thanks for tour words. They mean more to me that one can imagine. I have been reading your thread and you are a remarkable person. Its sad that some of us realise a bit too late that the one we married was actually the only one. Sonya was made for me and nothing would change that. It took a long time to realise that - but I am glad it sunk in sooner or any later would have been too late.About Deb - even if did not say a word - anyone can see what she means to you and you to her.
Thanks again Trev - we are going to be touch for a long time.
Take care Mate and lots of love to both Deb and you,
Ananth

Dear Pete and Cricket,
Thank you both for your warm response. It feels good - and even the pain that I am going through with every muscle aching feeld good. I had never ever imagined that I would ever complete all my desires in life which was just one left - and it cleared a desire of 32 years in two days. I have no idea why it took so long. I know it took a massive toll on not just my family but everyone around me. Finally as that weight has been lifted I am feeling great and can feel the change withen myself in regard to every negative thoughts and feelings I had harboured.
Well, now its a race between Varun ( my elder one ) and I to see who does more push ups in a span of time. The bet stakes are pretty high and I dont intend to loose this bet and I am sure he wants me to win.I have just got back from the gym and as I said I cant find which part of my body is not aching - so time for a hot (in this hot weather - crazy but good for the aches)shower and then I am going to watch "The fast and the furious" the third part which has not yet been released which my sons sit and each down load these new movies on their laptops.
Once again thank you for your warm postings - Its really made me feel great.
With lots of love to all,
Ananth
PS- my name is "Ananth" and Pete and cricket - start getting that right.Anath and annath means a poor orphan!!! Just kidding - my fingers slide off the key board more often then not.

My dear Ananth how lovely to see your post and such an upbeat one too. You have been missed. Keep strong keep positive keep posting

Mum
xxx

Great to read that you are back and raring to go!
Best wishes as always!

Tony

Hey - welcome back Ananth.

We can spend a lifetime loooking for something which was right under our nose all the time.


Fight on - we are behind you all the way.