hi all

just had 4th RT and at home chilling now. i have ben seeing at lovely lady at the hospital each day just prior to my treatment for some relaxation therapy. it does help a bit and i find i can focus on something else during treatment to take my mind of it. when i got there today the radiographars were all new to me,, sounds silly but even so soon you get used to same faces and i convinced myself they had done it wrong!!! i could so easily talk myself out of this treament and often have but usually someone talks me back into it. i get so emotional about it all and i guess i just feel sorry for myself sometimes. i get so sick of hospitals and treatment, for the last year it has just seemed endless!! anyway, no major side affects so far but i have found im really tired early evening and my mouth feels a little claggy if you know what i mean.still eating and drinking fine. so thats my moan over and done with for today. stay well everyone and all of you going though RT hang on in there!!! we will get through it as we know from our freinds here.

love to you all

christine xxx

Well done Christine and you are totally entitled to that moan. By the end of my treatment I apologised to my radographers for moaning so much lol. I cried on them, moaned at/to them and they were brilliant and supportive all the way through. On my last day I hugged them.

love Chloex

Hi Christine, myself well I can relate to what your saying. I hope your emotions aren't surfing too far from the beach, last week I just found myself erupting, no reason. Mind you I find that being surrounded by
family sometimes doesn't help either at these sorts of times.

Its tough all this treatment lark.
be in touch

Cheers

hi nigel and chloe and everyone,

chloe i really hope all goes well for you when you go home, im sure it will and if you need a natter or a moan or just to tell us how great things are you know where to find us all.

nigel you are right it is tough but i guess we just have to get on with dont we!!! i havent lost my temper much its just that i seem to cry so easily right now. it sort of comes in waves, one minute im very strong the next im this vunrable soft thing!!! oh well its not going to be like this forever and i will come out of this just fine, we all will!!

there you go!! got me positive head back on!!! i knew i still had it somewhere!! it must have been hiding under that bloody mask!!

chat soon, stay strong

love christine xx

hi christine

During and well after my treatment I had some alternative therapy such as indian head massage.This was particulary useful for stress relief and relaxation.I would also recommend reflexology

Robert

I had massage at my local hospice and that worked wonders. It was one of the only times I felt relaxed. Highly recommended. Hagg.

im having a good think about the reflexology. only thing thats stops me going for it is that it is in the hospital and at the moment all iwant to do when i have had treatment is get out of there.

today was day 6 and im feeling rotten. i feel really tired and washed out and a bit queezy. my throat is dry and irritable but not sore. i just want to lay down and do nothing.

it feeels good to have the weekend off and not have to go to hospital. im determined to have a day out on sund with my hubby, i really fancy going to the coast. i reckon the sea air will do me good.

chat soon

love christine xx

Hi Christine,

Sorry to hear you are already feeling the effects. I hope you had a good rest yesterday. I slept every afternoon during my treatment - it was great not being awake as then it wasn't happening. And I lived for the weekends! I hope you have a good day at the coast and it doesn't rain on you

Lots and lots of love to you

Chloex

hi chloe
hope everything is going well for you at home. it feels so good not to be at hospital over the weekend. yesterday however, i was feeling awful!! i was so tired and felt really sickly, i never even got dressed all day, but today im feeling much better!! whats that all about?? my throat and mouth still feel dry and irritable and my op scar is getting quite sore, that must be the RT because my wound healed really well and i havent had any ptobs with it. iv also nticed im gettings spots!! i never get spots!! even in my teens i got away with them!! i did get to the coast today, bit off a daft idea going in this weather but i just wanted to do something normal. anyway we got to the freeport shopping place and can you believe it, they had to shut the whole place due to the wind!!!! oh well at least i got out. anyway back to the grindstone tomorrow!!

chat soon

love christine xxx

Bloody hell christine you are brave.North east coast in a force ten hurricane!!!!!!!! Mad lol

its terrible here in Leeds so god knows what it is like on the caost.

I lost 2 fence panels yesterday! But the coast is the coast whatever the weather - it is fun!

I'm afraind it will be very much like that Christine - I was knocked for 6 and felt like a zombie alot of he tiome - then the day after chemo I had what I called the chemo slump - slmped into a chiar feeling half dead (it got better though). I was also very emotional.

Just focus on the end and why you are doing it and hopefully that will get you through.

Its great to be home even though I was nervous. Great to be with the boys as well and beat them both at Monopoly - I felt a bit mean!
I am being very organised - packed lunch ready the night before in case I am not up in time! I was though. Done a bit a cleaning this morning and I am starting training this week for The Mouth Cancer Foundation Walk this week. i hope to get out 3 times a week. I think I will be holding my team back (there are 4 of us in total) as I need to build up my strength and stamina again!I tried on clothes that I was too big for yesterday and YAY - I fit back into them again. I look pretty damn good - except the big scar on my neck and double chin that may never go!

I hope you had a good weekend.

Love Chloex

hi cookey,, your right!!i was barking mad to do that but i felt well and just wanted a normal day out little realising most normal folk were at home indoors safe and sound!!! oh well it passed the day on, lol!!1

hi chloe, things sounds like they have turned a corner for you. im really glad everything is going ok. im sure you was nervous at first and its great that you have got yourself into a routine. a great big pat on the back for you!!

it was back to the RT today and had doc,s review today as well.ive been prescribed diclofenac for my red and bloody sore scar!! lansoprozole to protect stomach and a million forisips (yuk!) they weighed me thur then again today and its coming off fast already so they want to keep an eye on that. can you belive it iv been on a diet for at least 20yr and then some doc comes along and wants to fatten me up!!! there,s no justice in this world is there? lol

love to you all, chat soon

christin exxx

LOL me too! Dietin for years and getting no where. Then I went on my ExTrEmE cancer diet lol and got told off for loosing eight - a stone and a alf in the end YAY!

Cx