Hi Everyone
Here it is, 5.42am and I have been awake since 3.30 and since I'm taking today off work, actually have a chance to come online and catch up with you all.
The reason for my inability to sleep is Tricky Trev! I'm feeling very anxious, as he is. He was admitted to hospital on Sunday after a week of reflux/hiccups/pain in his stomach/bloating and vomiting. He hardly ate a thing last week and lost 6 kgs. He has no appetite.
He is very frightened that his old friend has decided to make itself known and try as we may to brush it aside, I'm sure you all know how we're feeling.
He had CT scans yesterday of chest and abdomen and they are doing bloods etc. When I spoke to our GP yesterday he said it might be something viral but they can't rule anything out with Trevor's history of the dreaded C. I hope we're not going to finally meet that missing primary.
Anyway, don't want to be morbid, just keeping you in the loop and taking advantage of a bit of time up my sleeve. Just as Tracey W said in her post, when you feel OK (and Trevor has been feeling wonderfully well until a week ago) it doesn't seem right to take up the space of those who are new to the whole cancer thingy. Out of sight definitely doesn't mean out of mind.
I hope everyone is doing fine. I haven't had a chance to look through many posts but wonder how Alan and Maggie are. Can anyone shed any light there? Chelle, is everything OK for you?
Love to you all. Will keep you posted as to T's progress.
Deborah

Hi deborah, I had been wondering how you two were. I am so sorry to hear that trev's not been well I will keep absolutely everything I can cross crossed for yo that it is something viral. I know when my son had a pain in his back a while back and had to have bone scan my sister who works in a hospital said it was just that everytime someone who has had cancer gets a pain then they will do all these checks. Needless to say I didn't stop worrying until we had the results which turned out ok. I know there is nothing I can say to make it easier just that you know we are all here for you and willing things to be ok.Like I say Deborah will keep you and Trev in my thoughts. Keep us posted,

Love across the oceans to you both
Mum
xxx

Deborah

We am missing Trevor's humour and down to earth outlook on life on this board.Please give him our best wishes and tell the old warhorse to keep fighting on.

All the best

Robert and Lorraine

Hi Deborah

Really sorry that Trev's in hospital, give him a big hug from all of us over here. Tell him that we are all waiting to hear from him when gets out of hospital with some good Aussie jokes.

Take care of yourself and best regards to Trev.


Tony

Hi Mum, Robert & Lorraine and Tony
Well here I am home again after a very long and awful day.
We did not get any good news I'm afraid. In fact it's far from it. Trevor's duodenum is obstructed by enlarged lymph nodes which is the reason he hasn't been able to keep anything down ~ there's only one way out of his tum.
He has been transferred down to the Royal Adelaide Hospital (I know, it means nothing to anyone) but that is where he has had all of his treatment.
He will hopefully have a gastroscopy tomorrow to have a look around down there and also in the hope of being able to biopsy the nodes. If they are (as the dr suspects) the same as he had in his neck, I think they will only do palliative treatment with a bypass. Here's hoping it isn't the same old, same old.
This just doesn't make any sense. It's even more surreal than the original diagnosis. He has been looking so well, he's been able to do some work on the car and was walking such long distances I worried that one day he'd forget to come home! He has been the main babysitter for our gorgeous little grandson (who is 6 months today) which has given him so much joy and meaning for his life.
So everything is very much up in the air and maybe by tomorrow night we will have more idea of just where things are heading. Thanks for your kind words (I've just read them out to Trevor when he phoned a few minutes ago). I(we) really thought we were past our need for the forum and honestly, once you're well it feels a bit 'wrong' somehow to take up space BUT I can't tell you how comforting it was to find your messages. You all know how we are feeling right now and that's nice.
Thanks again (and again, from Tricky Trev)
Love
Deborah

Dear Deborah,
I truly hope everything goes off well with Trev.
Regards,
Ananth

Oh no - how bloody dreadful for you both. Just to have to go through the uncertainty, the worry, the anguish - my heart goes out to you both. Trev and my mum were sort of level pegging for a while there, although he was a little infront in the eating stakes.

I will summon all the power of all my most positive vibes and send them down-under to you both.

With my heartfelt very best wishes.

Hi Deborah, only just seen this post. I hope it all goes well for Trev. I'll send some positive vibes too. Hagg.

Hi Deborah

I too have only just caught up on this thread. So sorry to hear that Trev isn't well. Please give him my very best wishes. I will be thinking of you both and hoping for some more positive news. Keeping everything possible crossed.

Gwyn

Hi Debs,
Just caught up with this post and i'm in shock!
It seems whenever you think you're out bof the woods and starting to live again this thing comes and taps you on the shoulder.
I really hope 'IT' isn't back. It doesn't really make alot of sense does it?

I'm good thank you, waiting to get an ultra sound biopsy on an enlarged node in my neck. But they aren't too concerned.
Business is going from stregnth to stregnth.

Send me a PM when you get the results and i'll be thinking of you both. Give Trev a hug & a kiss from me!
Tell him that we wont tolerate a relapse!!

Love to you both,
Michelle

Hello Deborah,

Long time no speak! My heart sank when I read about Trev. You are right in thinking that we all know how you are feeling right now. That's why we're all here for you both.

Sending you positive vibes across the miles.

Please let us know how things go as I'm sure you're in everyones thoughts.

Come on Trev, we're all rooting for you.

Love

Lorraine
xx

So sorry to hear your news. I posted some pix a month or so ago in the Community Album and came across the two of Trev and of the pugs. Loved Trev's shock of hair! When I was whining (whinging?) about fatigue from rads you sent me a PM about how Trev could sleep 18 hours a day and would do so in his recliner rather than in bed - he wanted to be part of the family even if asleep. That was very touching and I knew then what kind of guy he was, how he related to his family and how lucky you all were to have one another.

Best of luck to all of you. I'll shake out my vibes and send the good ones your way.

Please keep us posted.

Mimi

hi deborah and trevor
what a worry for you both,just to let you know i am thinking of you both,love shirl xxx

Hello Deborah and Trevor, was so upset to read your news .I think we can all share the feeling of this worry and set back .I am really hoping and praying that there is a solution to this problem and with all the new drugs and treatments coming to the fore the outcome of the surgery will prove to be something that can be dealt with in a positive manner .

I am thinking about you as everyone else here is on the forum try and keep in a positive frame of mind ,I hate saying this to you as when we get a set back it is so hard to climb back up there mentally but the support from everyone here does give a boost .

Being positive for you both.

Bell .

Hi Deborah and Trev
So sorry to hear that Trev's had a setback. Hope you can both try and keep positive - really hard I'm sure. So many people are rooting for you!!

Love

Chris