Hi All
Have been offline for a couple of weeks as my new internet provider took a while to connect. Went for my first monthly appointment yesterday and alls well - only 59 months to go!

I started my new job 2 weeks ago and i feel strange - slightly disorientated and disconnected from everything and everyone. Been waking early and feeling low - I want to cheer up and feel I have to for everybody else's sake, but in private I am sad. I suppose this is normal-after all its only 2 months since the diagnosis and a lot has happened since then.
I know that only I can shake this off.
Hope everybody else is well.
Take care
Patricia

Hi Patricia, you've done really well getting back to work so soon after diagnosis. It might help keep your mind off things. The cheering up will come with time but the healing process can be a slow one, not surprising though with what we all go through.
Glad the checkup went ok. Hagg.

Thanks Hagg. I know I've been lucky to have only a small surgery unlike some here but for me the mental healing is hard.
Thats when this site helps so much as reading the posts helps even if you dont post and when you do someone always replies -thankyou

Hi Patricia

Good to hear that you have started your new job. I hope it goes really well for you.

Like you I was surprised at how much my diagnosis and operation affected me psychologically. Luckily I had my husband to talk to and this helped no end - it must be so difficult for you if you have no-one you can offload on to and you have to put on a brave face for everyone.

Remember we are always here if you are feeling low.

Love
Gwyn xx

I do talk to a couple of friends but I get anxious that I dont want to wear them down with my troubles all the time. Some days I am upbeat and some days it seems all too much.
But then I try to come on the site and read and post - I always feel better for it. Every body here is alawys ind and generous.

I suffered badly mentally for quite a while but it does pass eventually and nearly eleven years on, I see more positives that came from my illness than negatives, in a roundabout way it really got me to sort my life out. Hang in there. Hagg.