There is a long section of my own cancer battle that have looked at the ''reason'' for it. I have brought in energy people, spoken to healers in the mountain villages, prayed and visualized the cells dying. The healers all had the same reason for the diease (even when they knew nothing, they went directly to my throat).I was shocked at them hitting the nail on the head. Was it something ''bad'' that I did? A Punishment? No, it doesn't work this way. Is it the body telling the mind something? I think to many degrees it can be and is. So, what do we do? We should all live closer to living our gut reactions, go with the feelings that are ''right'', and hold nothing in. Communicate and be happy, touch and love and be loved, and when you're stuck in a rut- get out of the bad and into the sunshine! We all need a deeper spiritual basis to fight the monster, we need positive thoughts, but remember : you are the center of your universe and the cancer and the rude doctors are space dust. In the end your intentions are what will keep you here in living format. We all know that prayer works, but guilt is not a part of it. No one has to ask for forgiveness, as this cancer is not served out is relation to evil, good and bad. It is a sign coming from the body that something is wrong. It might be a small signal or a heavy toll, but it is the intention of the body to send a signal that something is not in order and it has to be corrected. I haven't figured it all out, but I have a strong feeling that there are things and ways you have to lead your life that makes the body bypass the route of cancer. The world and nature does have a way to work out diease and dis-order. It takes using all your power to rid yourself of any invader. It takes belief in yourself that you will win and move on. What is does for all of us is that it makes us more focused and in search for a clearer and positive way to live your life when we see how fragile we are.