Ric and I want to wish all of you and yours a Very Merry Christmas & A Happy New Year. This has been a year of hardships, heartaches, scares, losses, new friendships and many many prayers. We honestly didn't know that I would even be here but here I am. This will be another heartfelt Christmas for the two of us. Just to have each other and be able to hold each other is all the gift we both could ever wish for. We pray that you can do the same. For I am sure that I am not alone in that statement. I am possitive that there are some of you that thought that you too would not be here to celebrate another holiday. For all of those who have lost the loved ones, we will be thinking of you and your families this Christmas holiday. We take no friend or no amount of time for granted. My motto was I can't take no more in 2004..I have already thought of my new one,,I am stay alive in 2005. Hey we have to have humor. LOL.. I want to say something about our sponsor ..Here goes...Dr. Joshi a special note to you to say Thank You. For if it were not for you, we would not have this wonderful place to come and let all our fears, scares, tears, hopes, dreams, wishes and prayers be heard. God Bless you my friend. You are a angel.....MERRY CHRISTMAS to ALL.....Ric & Vicki Lynn

Hi Vicki Ric and every one on RDOC
I wish you all happy holiday

Well at times I did not think i would make it to the end of the month never mind year.

I must say Vicki really kept me going through some bad times not only with the Cancer but everthing else we all have to endure in our lives.

My approach for next year will be forget whats happened in the past and look foward to the next day and in that day enjoy as much as possible if its only sitting and doing a crossword or reading the paper or my favorite pastime (not) cleaning the flat its something I could not posssibly do 3 years ago.
A little thing I know but when you have been to where we have litle things in life become very precious.

Paul

Paul You are so so right. A year ago I could not even walk. I couldn't stand up or sit up in the bed. I have come a long way. I hope that the NEW YEAR will bring me closer to my goal of speech. Also to be able to get off the feeding tube. However I am going to have to get over my fear of choking first. We have all jumped some high hurdles this year. I am proud of all of us. I might also add those hurdles we jumped--that was all us. No one did it for us. We are stronger than what most thought we were, perhaps even more than we knew we were. We are also brave. We took this painful surgery head on and we are still here to talk about it. I was thinking about what I said on here about being brave. I am brave, I am brave because I didn't not take my life in my own hands. I am brave because I did fight. I fought everyday just to move, sit up to swallow. These were fights. I mean BIG ones for me. It would have been so easy to take some extra med's and end it all---but I didn't do that....WHY??? Because I am strong willed. I am brave. I am a fighter....So I don't want to hear anyone esp. myself ever say that we are not brave.....I may not win this fight but when I get done at least I know I gave it all I had plus some......To a NEW YEAR with so many possibilities.......Vicki Lynn

Hi Vicki,
I carry your courage and story with me. I pray for you while in louisiana. I know you'll be ok and loved always.
Chris