Hi Everyone! I am really scared right now and haven't stopped crying for about an hour so all I could think to do was write to you! Doug is convinced his cancer is back because he is having headaches at the base of his neck/head like before he was diagnosed and has been very dizzy and nauseated. I made an appointment with his oncologist for Tuesday but I am so freaked out in the meantime! I keep thinking that all these symptoms could be other things...for instance...he got his feeding tube taken out last month and it still seeps liquid and he won't let me look at it so maybe I was thinking it is infected and making him feel sick? I guess I am just looking for someone to tell me that it could be something else and not cancer again...like stress, low blood pressure, thyroid again...anything else!

Hi Belle.
Steve here. You know ive chatted with Doug a couple times about music and so on and I thought he was picking up a little, but setbacks happen and we suffer from a wide range of side effects through treatment. Please dont fear the worst because it probably won't be. I've had alot of complaints with cramp, nausea, and difficulty in swallowing over the last couple of years but when the slightest additional thing comes along I do get flustered about it in case its cancer related. Hang on in there Doug. The biggest battle is to try not to let it run you down. I don't think us musicians handle this stuff too good.

Hi Steve. Thank you. I don't know if I am any less terrified but at least I have stopped wandering around the apartment talking to myself about all the reasons why this can't be happening! I think it just really scared me the way his oncologist jumped at getting him in there ASAP. Not that it is a bad thing because I want him to get checked out but it worried me that they were worried..know what I mean? If I could switch places with Doug I would do it in a heartbeat because this hurts too much! I just want him to be healthy and happy...its not alot to ask for really. Well, here I go again with the waterworks! It is hard that he is so convinced. He says he feels sick the way he did before he was diagnosed so now he is just so sure. He is visiting his mom out of town so at least he can't see me be such a baby. Well, I will try and keep what you said in mind and I have never been one for prayers but maybe I should start. By the way, I heard Doug playing your music one night and I thought it was really great. You musicians are in a league of your own though.. like you said. Even more sensitive than we artists! Wish you and your girl were in the US because maybe you could get Doug out of this frame of mind. Take care and thanks again!

Let me know what happens Belle and that he's ok with himself....or i'll look out for him online when he comes back. If me and Jane were on your side of the pond then we'd pop over for sure. Take care for now.
Steve.