It has been a year since my last CANCER accurance. I must say this has been a long but at the same time short, YEAR. I have went as high as the skies and as low as the ground. I have met some new friends and lost some old ones. I have cried a thousand tears and yet I have laughed a hundred times. I have had no voice to speak, so it has been silence for me, yet I have heard every single word perhaps for the first time. I have learned so much this last year yet wonder what have I learned. In this last year I have hated yet loved, laughed yet cried, wounded yet healed, screamed yet sighed,
mad as HELL yet calm as a stream and died yet I lived. I don't know what my future holds for me. I don't know what to do the NEXT time I am told I have CANCER again. But I do know this. I am going to live some before I die. I will talk and eat again before I die. If I were a animal they would have at the very least done the honorable thing and ended this life. But on the flipside of that, how will we ever know what will or will not work for the next person who has this...Judge, oh it is not for me to do that, but then again why isn't it....Vicki Lynn

Vickie, You are such a wonderful person dont think of dying yet think of living some.
Yes another year for me end of this month 3 years, Do I rejoice or be sad I am still here to tell the story?
I am going to have my 7 th Biopsy in 2 weeks so not looking foward to that and the angony of the wait for the results.
BUT like yourself by the skin of my teeth get through somehow
I am the same what do I do if the Cancer has come back is it time to say bye to all the pain both mentally and physically :banghead:
What can we do if you have a loved one and a loving husband like your Dear Sir Ric you have everything to go for both your sakes.

Paul

PS best of luck today

Hey, you two

You can say it as it is - dark nights and sunny days. My wish is to see the two of you grow really old gracefully and reading your 100,000th post!

Best wishes
Vinod :coffee: izza:

Hello to the terrible twins didn't realise that BOTH had anniversaries.

Couldn't agree more with Dr. J. How dare either of you think of dying. What would we do without your input? Neither of you any hesitation in giving both sides of living with cancer, the ups and the downs but more importantly giving insights in how you dealt with the downsides.

Right now I keep trying to recall some of the things you've written as I keep slipping towards self-pity since the lung cancer was confirmed. But at least the chemo not's turned out to be as bad as I expected. Mind you today was only the second session.

So yet again thanks and keep posting.

God bless

HI Pikeman, I am so glad to hear that things are not too bad
How long does the Chemo last
Do you go to the BRI

as for me & Vicki, Terrible yes twin definetly not :banghead:

It amazing over the last 3 years what ha s happened but we are still here but to be grateful for that NOT sure
I usually think about the good times I had when not feeling too good mainly the Hols I have been on
But do not live in the past even though the present is not too good

My fondest regaurds to Anne


Paul

You guys are killing me, LOL, I am not going anywhere YET!!!!!!!!!!! I always say that HELL doesn't want me and HEAVEN is afraid I will take over. LOL. Pikeman my heart is just breaking for you. I cannot imagine them telling me that I have lung CANCER now after all that I jhad already gone thru. I just cannot. When I thought it was in my lIVER I all but passed out. You know how they say, put yourself in there shoes? Well I am honestly trying to but I just cannot. What I would give for this to have not happened to you and your wonderful family. You have become a dear friend to me. I just cannot stand the thought of you having to go thru anything else.. I am praying for you every day...Paul, hum, we are twins.I hope Pikeman means in the situations that we find ourselves in, for you are too young to be my twin, LOL, Plus where is your gray hair? LOL..I would love to have your accent, tho,..LOL...Well how is my brother then? LOL.Dr.J you need not worry I am doing fine. If it wasn't for here and the means to """LET IT ALL OUT""" who knows where some of us would be today. I thank you for starting this forum for all of us. You have no idea what you have done or what it means to most of us..Or maybe you do know, it means the world to me. I just wanted to tell you. Your the best!!!! And you know I needed to read those posts today,,,,LOL,, thanks for the nice things you have said and the laughs along with it. What would we do or where would we be without laughter in the world ..Always Vicki