Hi Everyone,
First off all, many thanks to the members who noticed I'd not been around for a while and sent me private messages. You are all true pals.

I think on my last post I said that RT had been stopped because my face had opened up again.
Unfortunately for me it is now open from just under my ear to the middle of what is left of my chin, a really good gaping, drooling mess. I also found out that I have MRSA. To say the least I've been a bit sick both physically and mentally.
There is good news though. I'm off into hospital on Tuesday and 4th operation on Wednesday. This time they are going to take some back muscle and maybe a rib. Keep your fingers crossed for me guys that this time it will work!
I'll get the lap top brought into the hospital when I feel up to it. Don't expect too much though, I've already been told it's going to be another long one, so apart from feeling like Sh**e for a while, I'll be morphed out of my head "again". (Oh the hallucinations. Wonder what tripe I'll come out with, or imagine this time, LOL)
I've had a quick look through the recent posts,
Hi to all the new people and I hope to get to chat to you when I'm more able.

I'm hoping to be home again before the end of September. I've applied for a place at college! Keep the mature student jokes to a minimum please! I'll tell you my plans about what I am thinking about doing another time. Infact I'd like your comments. That'll keep you guessing a while!
PS. Hi Nangie, I'm hoping this time to get my right boob reduced to match the left one from where they took the pec muscle for the 2nd operation. Get the nipple jokes ready cause I'm sure I'm going to need them. X

Talk to you all again soon.
SusieR xx

welcome back Susie! We were all so worried about you. Sorry to hear your news isnt as good as we would have liked but at least your hangin on in!

Everyone missed you. Whilst you were away we have had some nice new members, Trev from down under, his wife knits wigs for him, but dont let that put you off. JamesR, you will be able to swop swab stories with, he also has MRSA.

Did the bicycle clips work?

Good luck for next week, will be thinking about you. It must be awful having crosseyed nipples.

Lots of love

Nangie

Hi Susie
You won't remember me. Trevor and I joined the forum not long before you went off the air. We all noticed you weren't around and were worried about you, private email or not!
I hope you have a successful outcome this time and that all will be well. God knows you've got the fight and detemination in you for success so just go girl!
I am curious about your future plans. I won't make any comments on mature age learning other than I did it myself. I went to Uni in my forties and loved every single second of it. I was like a sponge and would love to be studying still. I fully understand how people become 'professional' students. Given the funds, that would be me!
All the best Susie. I really look forward to hearing of your progress soon.
We'll be cheering you on ~ may the force be with you!
Love
Deborah

Hello Susie

Good luck with the op. If you are well enough, you are invited to come to London for the MC Walk and say hello to your friends

Best wishes
Vinod

Hey Susie!
Sososoooooo relieved to see you back! You really have been missed!
Will different be keeping everything crossed they get it right this time.
COME ON NOW! GIVE OUR SUSIE A BREAK!
Thank you for puttinmg our minds at rest! You're one in a million.
*Big hugs*
Michelle

Dear Michelle,
I thought I was the one in a million - so I guess you ment among the guys.Suzies is something different and I really am very very fond of her. I loved her mesage and I really do hope things keep getting better for her. I cannot say - forever but whatever time we all have.

Michelle - dont foget I am "the Guy" and in case you foget I shall come back and haunt you!!!!

Tons of love and big bear hug,
Ananth

Good Luck Susie

Hi Susie,

You shall be in my prayers, may you know the grace and infinite love of God through your many friends on this site all rooting for your welfare.

When times are bad think of us thinking of you, and keep focussed on your future further education. As for the rest of your news I shall watch with interest the response that comes in and don't stay away too long,

love Alan x

Ananth hun... yo are also one in a million. Or maybe trillion?!

all the very best of luck susie and like alan says think of us thinking of you god bless bevxx

Hi Susie
Give it the big heaveOH and you'l go through it with flying colours, Be Strong and remember WE are with you all the way
Love Trev

Hi susie we havent had a chat yet but i want to wish you all the very best with your op nxt week im new to this forum but ive found it fantastic for info and i no im not alone and that helps with this damn illness good luck and i look forward to reading your nxt post when you feel up to it god bless

Hi Guys,
Just a question? Did any of you get depressed when you started PEG feeding? I am getting that way with not being able to eat and taste food during my feed. Deb and I and sometimes the Kids have meals at the same time. I don't want to stop eating(PEGGING) with them at the same time though, I believe it is starting to get to me.
Trev

Hi everyone -
Have really been out of touch - well nothing at all but some hectic changes around the home. Trev - this is for from a pro. in peg feeding ( after seven years I should be good!!). There was a short while when I would actually not just let the kids see me but even anyone else in the family. Feeding time meant just my wife and mum. After guess, maybe some two months later the boys would come and sit and watch me eating and that would fascinate them. They were still very young - today both have grown up and it hardly makes them feel odd. I too, as anyone else in condition long to eat and drink orally - but I cannot do either and I know very clearly that I should not even think its possible and trust me even if did become possible in a few numbers I may just not opt for it. Under these circumstances what you can ( I do )is for example are having steak or say a roast (Hmmmm), you could ask your wife to give you a small serving as everyone else. You can then cut the roast, mashed or the chicken and chew on it till you get all the flavor and then bin it ( I keep a small bin next to be which goes into the trash after ever meal). However, once the meal with the family is over (or you can do this before the family meal) is sit down quietly and start PEGGING! I am telling you Trev - I do not miss out on anything - right from icercreams to burgers to pizza. Look at it in this way you can have a "pegone or two".and then have your meal with the family)
Hasta luego,
Ananth

Hey Trev -
Let me tell you a story about being depressed and feeding through a tummy tube...
I finnished treatment December 18th.
I spent EVERY day watching bleedin' food programmes on t.v.
I went to my work x-mas do - at a posh hotel. & i couldn't eat or drink one thing that was put in front of me.
Christmas day - my whole family sat down to dinner without me. I couldn't bare the thought of sitting at the table while they tucked in to their turkey and all the trimmings in front of me. So i sat i sat in the other room crying my eyes out while they all sat in silence cuz i wasn't there. My mum kept crying to.
Boxing day it's at my nans for the other side of the famiy. Once again, i sat in the other room, squirting in a fortisip and throwing it back up. Sobbing. While they sat in silence for the most miserable x-mas dinner EVER!
One of my little cousines bought me in a cracker to pull. Guess what my prize was?? *lol* measuring scoops!! I joked that at least i ould use them to measure out my morphine!
Eating together is a major part of being a family. & you're entitled to feel lousy about it. But remember - it's just for now - not for ever. & it's all part of getting you better! Ananths been pegging it for ever!
It really is miserable - eatings the most natural thing in the world, like sleeping!
It getrs better Trev. But usualy not before it gets worse!
Thinking of you guys,
Michelle