So I have finished my chemotherapy treatment and had a scan. We recieved the results last week and its all very confussing. Basically the scan I had after 3 cycles of chemo showed a decrease of the tumour in my lymph nodes. The scan I have just had shows no further increase of decrease, so I have very mixed feelings as the weather that is good or bad news. We still have no answer as to weather the cancer is in my lung. The plan of action is to wait another 3 months and have a scan then, and further treatment if required. So what to I do till then!??!?!?
As for my back I am having another operation next week as the metal they inserted last time has sunk into my bones which are weak.

Claire,

I have just read through your blog, and I want to express my admiration for your courage throughout the difficulties you have faced. You have been so brave! Good Luck with the Operation next week, I hope it relieves some of the pain.
Jenni

hi clare
i cant beleive to understand what you are going thro...... but i think jenni sums it up......stay positive and try to get on with life

good luck and take care we are all here for you

jeff

Hi
Clare i can not begin to imagine all the mixed feelings you have at the moment after fighting and staying positive and strong through out everything you deserve some more definate answers my thoughts are with you keep writing your blog and posts

I hope everything goes well next week
i remember the personal email you sent me and i appreciate the response more than you ever know stay strong and positive just like you have already done through out

Mel x

Hi Clare,
I have no doubts about you emerging a winner and hence I really do feel you need any kind of advise. You just do what has to be done and thats it. As I wrote to Paul - one cannot turn the clock back and neither can we change the outcome of anything - so its best to accept what will be will be and move on.
Though no advise - you are in my thoughts and "may the force be with you"!!
Ananth