Hi
Does anyone out there think that God is testing you to see how much you can take. I have been watchng my husband to through this horriable paine since the first surgery to fix the Fistula in July. My heart hurts watching this. We go to Dallas next Thursday to try to fix it again.
I developed this mass on my breast and now I have seen a surgeon to see what is going on with that. I am about to give up I can not worry about Jerry and myself at the same time.

Sorry just had to sound off.

Terry

Hi Terry I agree with you about God testing us, I have a friend who has had breast cancer, skin cancer and a hysterectomy, she is only 36 and her husband died last week from lung cancer. He was a fit strong builder who never smoked. They have 2 kids 14 and 10years her hubby was 40!
Life can be a real sh-t can't it?
Truly hope your lumps are just benign cysts. Thinking of you
KEEP GOING FORWARD there is no way back!

I don't think God is testing us, but I do think that he has given us enough strength to handle what happens to us with dignity.

Hi, I have come to the conclusion, that all the good and kind people get the crap, and all the money seeking, hedonists, never get anything, they are so thick skinned they are never affected; I have to ask is there really a God, and why is he so cruel ?

Agree with you Garance. Those nasty people out there with no heart or soul usually remain healthy while the rest of us have to put up with intolerable illness's. Called sod's law I think.

I feel like that sometimes. I don't have cancer, my boyfriend does...he has been 2 months out of treatments but still feels horrible...has alot of problems with his peg tube...he can barely swallow water and now they found something on his lung. I keep asking aloud..."why?" I talk to God and say..."cut me some slack here...he is a great guy and doesn't deserve this" but of course...what answer do I get? I feel so numb sometimes I can't even cry anymore. I hate seeing him in pain and frustrated and angry. I have lost many family members to cancer and I am determined not to give up on him. You don't give up either. Just keep God out of the equation if you can...maybe pure will and braverly is enough!

In my honest opinion----- God didn't give us this!!!! Remember he is the good guy...This is the Devil's work. God didn't give us this disease, this is man made...there was once NO such a thing as CANCER. Or if there was, it was very very rare. Now it is everywhere. Talking about a plate, shit we have platters. We have serving trays full of this horrible crap. Cancer is the meanest, cruelest, most horriffic thing I have ever come to know. It is ruining and killing some of the wonderful people that walk among us. Devil is running out of people,,, Heaven is full and getting fuller still.. For the Good die young..Besides Heavens doesn't take in the bums and the creeps...Just remember this,,, you think your world is crap--look at someone elses....You aren't the only ones that are hurting,, crying,,,living and dying...We all are... You are not alone in this.. For every tear you shed, someone else is shedding 3. I have been working part time, it is great for me. DO I feel like working--HELL NO---do I want a life--HELL YES! Right now they have me doing this and that. I get up and I hurt all over. I set on the bed and I cry. There is no way I can do this today,,no way..Yet I get dressed and I am leaving the house. Now I am so proud of myself for pushing myself to do this. The people I work for have no idea what it is taking for me to do this. I don't want them to know. My husband either. I push and push and then I push some more. WHY? because I sat in this house for 2 years, I was ready to end it all, I was ready to run away, to just give up. I had no purpose, or so I thought. Cry ,,,,,Lord I cried everyday, allday....Now I am laughing. Now I have met people. Told them about myself and they are in complete and total shock that I am still here and doing as well as I am...You know what---So am I.. Please hang on,, don't give up or in.. You never know what is around the corner for you.. I can say this because I don't know what is around it for me. My metal plates are eating thru my skin, there is talk of removing them,, then I would be left with a very disfigured face.. one day at a time, on second at a time....k ------scream, yelll,,,,,,,let it all out......vicki

I dont think god gave us this terrible Cancer.
I feel people seem to go through life blinkered and they are the ones who seem to survive and have no ilness.
I knew all about Disibility (so I thought)working for client with Disabilites both Mental & Physical but I cannot belive how many ignorant gruel people there are out there.
I get up very early everyday worrying how will I get my mind around to thinking I am worth something and I can go out and do what I want but just one comment when I am out and my confidence goes out the window.
\i pray to god for help as hes the only one who does not answer back with some glib statement like "well you alive" AM I ?

Paul

Well what can I say to you all, my best friend has M.S. and was about to have her foot removed by the NHS, until I found a hospital who does a new procedure, which she has to pay for, but it looks as though it has worked, she has been going through agony. A friend has had twins one of them has the terrible skin problem ( the boy whose skin fell Off, was on T.V.) so the Devil or who is putting these terrible blights on people's lives ?

Need some advice on what to do for Jerry. He goes from the bed to the recliner. He has lost interest in everything.
I think all the surgeries have taken a toll on him.
Terry

Hello Terry, I'm sorry to read your last posting as it sounds as if Jerry has just had enough - and who can blame him - we all feel like that at times but he sounds to have hit rock bottom. I'm probably stating the obvious to say he is depressed - is he on any medication to help? I gather that sometimes a blood transfusion can be a great help, as well as helping the body it can also help lift the mood. I just hope this is a temporary thing and he starts to pick up soon. We all feel so helpless in these situations

You mentioned in a previous post that you were having tests for a mass in your breast. Have you had any results on that? I sincerely hope that it came out clear.

Brenda Brady trying to get in touch. Posted you on the forum under questions and answers. Could you please read it. Thanks I would appreciate your advice. Did you have cancer on the base of your tongue?

Dear Terry. Matt often gets very depressed. We cope with it by just trying to be normal. I found, if I said to Matt 'tell me what's wrong. Talk to me' and so on. I'm sure you know what I mean. It made him worse. The thing I have found how to deal with it is to. Leave him to get on with it !!!!! The more I asked, the worse it got. I watched and waited until there was alittle tiny tiny spark of life and grabbed it. Doing little bits, for example. ' let's go see your Shirley'. Shirley is Matts sister and she is fab, Matt loves to go see her and she puts no pressure on him.
What I'm trying to say (I think) is. Don't natter him. Give him time and grab him back when you can.
I hope I'm not teaching my Grandma to suck eggs Terry. Just saying what (sometimes) works for us.
Love Michelle.x

Hi Terry and all

I am at the first hurdle with God as to why he lets the GOOD people suffer
I am no innocent but I am not bad and cannot understand why me and now my friends one now has Liver Cancer NEVER smoked or drank
I am only 46yo and most of my time is on thoughts what will I do IF the C comes back and when do I decide that I have had enough
As I write in another posting it affects you mentally,physically and monatary
To add insult to injury had my car broke into OUTSIDE my house for third time


Paul

Paul, maybe we were all very bad in a previous life!
I don't remember enjoying it tho'!
Sorry to hear about your car, there are some evil s-ds out there. Wouldn't you like to punch them?