HI Guys, Can someone tell me I was a bit diturbed by a comment by my GP that some people think that in the life before you were a bad person :banghead: that is why we are suffering now???
Does this make any sense to anyone ?

Paul

Paul, Hell no that is not anywhere near the truth. I would love to go one on one with the GP that even had the nerve to repeat this. :alert: What a STUPID thing for a prefessional to even engage in. I am appauled!! I am outraged! What a ignorant thing to repeat or to even think. Disease does not know good from bad. Young from old. Male or female. Rich or poor. It is in us all, I was told this by a team of Doctors. There is a GENE that we all have. In some it activates in others it does not. They are spending hour after hour, dollar after dollar on research to find out what it is that triggers this GENE to activate. They have in the past thought it was nicotine from tobacco. Or acohol from drinking. However they are finding out now that there are people young and old coming down with this disease that have never done either of this things, so where is it coming from?? This is what researchers are trying so very hard to figure out. But to even think for one moment that only the bad people get CANCER, is crazy. The prisons are full of BAD people, They don't have CANCER. So I ask you? Vicki Lynn

Hi

What a load of old nonsence how does he know can he rememver what he was like. Its a fact that good nice decent people seem to be the ones who suffer in this world as people believe in god so you must believe that there is satan and with all the horrible things happening in the world today beside illness I know who I think is ruling the world.
Of course it does not mean you are a bad person all the people on here a very nice and certainly do not deserve to suffer in the manner they are now. ON my soap box again I think oral cancer surgery is inhuman okay iot prolongs life but at what a terrible cost to quality goi on tell mne Im wrong. but if you think living is not being able to speak eat and have continous pain well good on you, but it is not for me. I would rather 20 years less and quality of life. I expect I will recieve my qouta of hate mail. of course I admire and respect the way you are all living your lives with the after effects I wish I could be like you but I cannot

AMEN Eileen, couldn't have said that better myself...You go girl!!!Well those that do challenge that post, are not being honest with theirselves in the deep dark painful truth of all this. Don't get me wrong I DON'T WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HOWEVER I DON'T WANT A LIFE THIS WAY EITHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!So what do I do. I fight this battle that I should have never had to fight. How can you can this life when you cannot even feel a kiss from a spouse you adore. What do u think this does to them as well. Oh don't get me wrong they want us here with them. But if they could, they would honestly say, I want my wife or my husband back,. That is just being hard cold honest. HELL I WANT ME BACK! Eileen some may be appauled by your post. I however am not. There is no FUN in this. There is no RELIEF in this. There is no Peace in this. So therefore how in the world can anyone say a thing about what you have wrote. If you ask me I would rather read honest words than any other. You have a friend in me. After 15 years of living with CANCER, I dare anyone to challenge a single thing I have ever said on here. Until they have walked in my shoes, laid in my bed with me crying in pain, held my hand that was shaking with fear, looked thru my swollen eyes from tears, they cannot say a word....Vicki Lynn

quote from Robbie Williams song """I dont wanna die, but dont wanna going on living either
this sums up my feelings.
Paul

The rest of what could a Summer 2004 theme song!


Come and hold my hand
I wanna contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given

I sit and talk to God
And he just laughs at my plans
My head speaks a language
I don't understand

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
'Cause I got too much life
Running through my veins
Going to waste

I don't want to die
But I ain't keen on living either
Before I fall in love
I'm preparing to leave her

I scare myself to death
That's why I keep on running
Before I've arrived
I can see myself coming

And I need to feel real love
And a life ever after
I cannot give it up

I just want to feel real love
Feel the home that I live in
I got too much love
Running through my veins
To go to waste

I just wanna feel real love
In a life ever after
There's a hole in my soul
You can see it in my face
It's a real big place

Come and hold my hand
I want to contact the living
Not sure I understand
This role I've been given

Robbie Williams

:ashamed: Paul, I have to say all this Karma Krapp gets on my nerves: All the kind good honest folk seem to have the burden of illness, the really Shixxy ones never get hit; a girlfriend came from vancouver to look after me, went back felt ill open heart surgery, my boy friend just had a pulmony embolism, the friend I went to see in france, major stroke, these are all great folk;
just put you faith in the Great Spirit dream about a BIG BEAR, healing medicine, and know we are all here for you. Garance