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Hi! Ananth,

Boy how do I start, You have read my story and we were close to meeting in Melbourne and as it happened this didn't transpire, I now wish that it would happen NOW as since I have been diagnosed with inopperable Pancreatic Cancer I would like to sit and talk over the things that you have been speeking about for 6 months or more. I have been given the option of 9 months to live OR with Chemo/RT maybe 2 years or more(I have optted for more), my decision was not just made quickly as the thought of the side effects ot the treatment against the chance of seeing my next Grandchild made the choice simple.
I must say that I may look back on this decision later (if the treatment is REALLY BAD and the side effects HORRENDOUS) and think what if? BUT then the joy of looking on my children and my Lovely Wife & Soul Mate Deb my decision would be to take the treatment because 1,2,3,4......or more months with my loved ones is worth it. I sit here at my laptop and gaze out the window at the trees the blue sky (OOOPs the clouds are coming) and see peolpe and cars going past , these are things that are alive and going about life as normal as possible. The people walking down the street are oblivious to what is happening to people around them and they smile with a hello as they pass, maybe around the corner a truck or a Hyabushi (wrong spelling)may go out of control and smash into the person out strolling and kill them, well that is fate and chosen, so why go on and on decrying what may or should have happened when if it is time to go you will go.

I have chosen to go on and live my life to the full and even if that is a short or long time I accept it. I look upon my GranChildren and see new life in them and I hold Marley on my lap and think there is love and beauty out there so why knock it, the smiles and the goo and gaas I get out of Marley are worth ALL the extra time I have on this earth and don't wont to lose that time, my son is to have another child and that is worth looking forward to, away from the children life itself is worth living for, the freeway that is being built nearby the new buildings being erected in our little town are worth waiting to see. Deb and I had the oportunity to go away for a week pre treatment BUT I started to throw up so we cancelled the trip but still I wish to go on(which is what I seem to be doing).

To cut this short LIFE is too wonderful to cut short and unless that truck or motrobike cuts my life shorter I want to live and even if it is only another year or two then YAHOOO I did it.

TREV