hey folks, here i am again, since my last post, i went and saw my family doctor about the small feeling i had in corner of inner lip on the left side, and he pretty well examined my mouth like i assume a dentist would, he tends to explain things in detail, and said the mouth is very common to alot things like this, and that not to worry, its not cancerous, etc. which is i guess a little bit of a relief, then as funny as it is, be it conicidence, when i worry about something it comes in bunches. now on the very opposite side, i felt saturday morning like a rough,raised feeling with my tongue, the best description is it feels like its smaller then a pinhead, naybe the side of the actual pin .

looking at it, i see it seems almost see through, or like a tiny tiny blister. its not painful, just THERE as in, i know its there so i keep persisting on touching it with my tongue, and looking into the mirror a dozen times a day.

Paranoid? yes indeed, its my nature, its similar to the things i've had on both side of the cheeks that go right down to the lower gums/teeth, again which a doctor said """ its nothing, dont worry about it"""

If anyone can explain the many different things we get in our mouths and or causes, or who have similar """symptoms""" it would be greatly appreciated, i'm almost tired of running back to a doctor weekly for every little thing i feel is urgent.

I know we are suppose to analyze with care and caution any thing that doesnt seem wrong, for ex. if caught early, you could save a lot of problems etc.

at the same time, i've always said that the media sells it, and we live the role. researching on the internet? you got to be kidding, it seems like 95% of medical websites for information ALWAYS leads to """ IT maybe a sign of Cancer""" regardless what part of the anatomy. it can be very stressful and frustrating. st least speaking for myself.

take care all, and hoping to hear from a few of you, the quitting smoking thing is really hard, almost discouraging, somedays i've lasted long, others back to normal, i know i want to quit, but i get all stressed out at the though of actually thinkin """ how will i do this, it cant be done""" even though i know it can, anyone with help and experience and stories here also would be greatly appreciated.

thank you

WEll hello again skidrow, This is wonderful news. You don't need to run to the doctor every time you turn around, just pay attention to your body. If something is there and it doesn't go away after a reasonable amount of time..My CANCER in my mouth nurt so bad I couldn't take it. Perhaps this was just me. But all three times it was very very painfull. I mean to tears. So you be the judge but don't over do it. You take much care and it was great to hear from you again. Always Vicki Lynn

vickilyn, you seem to be heaven sent, not only do i get quick replies from you and the doctor etc, its always so positive, in fact i'm very emotional today regarding my nerves, my anxiety levels are through the roof.

i personally thank you, and have read your story in detail, and i am simply amazed, courage? thats to say the very least, i was curious also, not sure if you have mentioned it, or my memory lapse, did you smoke and or drink? and how much on an avg , yrs, etc.

thanks alot hon, and god bless you, and your family and life, may it be just peaceful for you from now on end.

We must both be on here,,,LOL,,,THis is where I wish there was a chat room that we could all go to to talk to each other.. Wouldn't that be great..I am on AOL messenger if anyone has that. I am proudokie46....Skidrow, you have every right in the world to be EMOTIONAL we all do. We are going or been thru HELL! This is not a easy thing to go thru at all. The worst about this is--it is never done, or over..There is so much hard work for us to do, at home, alone. Once we are released from the hospital,,,,,it has just began. The learning how's-----to talk, to eat, to swallow, to deal, to cry, to wish and to pray. No I didn't do the things they say is the 'CAUSE' of this. I suppose this is why I am so DAMM angery. They have no clue why I got this. I didn't fit the profile for ORAL CANCER. But it really doesn't matter for I have it and have had it for 15 years. It has been so long that I can hardly remember my life without it. I would love for this to all go away and let me have so QUAILTY of life tho. Just some before my life is over. I would love to eat. I would love to talk. I would love to kiss my husband and feel it. But those are things I know will never happen. But a gal can DREAM. You hang in there my friend....You have come so far,,,you are doing great for what you were up against....You need me,,I am here...Always Vicki Lynn

thanks i just added you to the aim list, i guess you're offline now, anyhow, thanks

take care

i imagine the doc is busy or snoozin from all the work , look forward to his reply and everyone else for that matter.

thanks folks,
bless you

Hey skidrow where are you ,,,i am on line now