Hi,
The feelings i am getting are cant sit still, got to be on the go, i feel hyper most of the time and dont seem to be able to relax, when i go to bed i sleep for the amount of time my body thinks it needs, then i am tossing and turning all the rest of the time driving my wife nuts as she is a light sleeper. Have been to doctors and he gave me a few relaxation tec's how long will this go on for it is getting me down i just want the old me back before i had to start taking lorazepam to get through my mask fitting and to endure this 33 times for radiotherapy.By the way am no longer taking 0.50mg daily, have stopped them over a week now. check out my personal profile to find out what i have had done. If anyone in Rugby area would like to meet up feel free to mail me, would love to chat to some one who has the same op as me .

hi carl
i remember feeling the same as you do,it was driving me mad,1 year later i am still looking for the old me.try not to let it get you down mate.e-mail me and let off steam i really dont mind.after all thats what mates are for.love shirl xxx

Hi Carl, I'm not sure if the "old you" ever comes back properly. I mourned my old lifestyle for a long time (it was very unhealthy but great fun) but in the long term I would say the cancer was one of the most positive things that ever happened to me. I dont think I'm in the majority there but that's the way it affected me. You're still in the relatively early stages of the journey so things are bound to be weird still. Hang in there. You can mail me to let of steam too if you need too. Hagg.

Hi Carl, Im 6 years down the line and with the CANCER AND THE REST LIFE THROWS AT US i AM STILL LOOKING FOR THE me I KNEW!
I was always sleeping at first at the wrong times and even now slep alot and cannot get into any routine.
I had 36 radio and I think now wish they had left it on looks better than me now hehe

Serioulsly it is avery tough road we have tofollow with the ups and down but eventually we all have to realise what we are left with is all we have.
I still have alot of anger inside specially when people stare and make comments when im out I would if I could say "do you think im like this by choice" but when im stressed or tense I cannot get the words out.
I suffer really bad from Anxiety and it doe s not get better for me, I try to live with it.
Do keep posting how your doing the good and the bad everyone on here know where you at.

cheers

Paul